I miss him so much

Was it those brown eyes? Was it the fuzzy black and white coat? Was it the silly way he stuff out his tongue?

I don't know why I fell in love with him. Something hit me that day that I haven't felt since.It was true love at first sight. I cry every night because I miss him.

He was my entire world, my best friend, my soulmate and my partner in crime. It hurts so bad...

Please come back, I need you... Whenever something went wrong you were always there to make me smile again. Now every time I see you its with another girl. It instantly takes away all my happiness.

I wish you could be my partner again. But I know I can't have you back. I need to move on but I can't. Just remember whatever happens you will ALWAYS be My Classy Star.

You are my heart horse and I'll never forget you for as long as I live. I'll never find another horse like you. I love you Peppy.

It's been so hard not riding Peppy anymore. He was such a big part of my life. I haven't had much time with him. I miss him so much. I cry every night.

Riley is helping me get over him but he is my heart horse. I'm so attached it's so hard to just say goodbye and move on. Losing Peppy is like losing a part of myself. I know its not like he died but I miss spending time with him. I just don't want him to forget me.

Thank You

Now that I'm not as upset about not riding Peppy any longer I decided to write this...

Dear Peppy,

Nearly three years ago you came into my life. I loved you with all of my heart and you hated me at first :) but we worked through those first months. It was so worth it. We created a bond so strong and so amazing. Something I'll never forget for as long as I live.

I began to ride you regularly in lessons and we only grew closer. When 2017 came things got even better. We started cantering and jumping and we improved so much. Then we started showing in the summer.

Summer was incredible and I knew the fall was going to be amazing.

In November, I was told I was no longer going to be riding you. I had to move onto Riley. I'm so happy and I love him to death but it still hurt to be away from you. I felt so guilty. But the other day when we were playing in the pasture I realized something. I've enjoyed hand grazing you, playing with you and teaching you tricks more than any of the rides we had. I never realized I didn't have to ride you for you to be mine.

I cry sometimes knowing we're no longer partners in the saddle but then I remind myself how much you impacted me.

I want to thank you for the challenging rides. I want to thank you for the bucks and the bites. I want to thank you for making me mad and frustrated. I want to thank you for the amazing rides that showed me why you challenged me. I want to thank you for loving me like I loved you. I want to thank you for being my best friend, my soulmate, my partner in crime and my heart horse. I love you endlessly and I can't wait for more hours in the pasture and teaching to to bow and hug.

I love you Peppy. You taught me what love meant and you taught me how to be a winner. You taught me that letting go isn't as hard as it seems. And lastly, you taught me that when a door closes a better door opens.

Thank you.

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Jan 15, 2018
I'm so sorry
by: :(

It's such a sad story but I had to admit I actually enjoyed reading this story and I love it!

Thanks for writing this!

Jan 10, 2018
To Heartbeat for horses
by: Hoofbeats

So sweet and very well written!

My boy and I wish you the best of luck with your new lesson horse!

Jan 06, 2018
by: heartbeat for horses

Thank you Haddie! It's getting a lot easier. I've been working with Riley a lot and I love him to death. I miss my boy but I got some time with him last week. :)

Dec 30, 2017
Heartbeat for horses
by: Haddie

I'm so sorry you're hurting. I've felt a lot like that before, when I've had to be away from dear (human) friends. Please remember that God is your only friend who never changes, never leaves you. (Hebrews 13:5,8) Also, from Psalm 62:5-8, "For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him....my mighty rock, my refuge is God. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us."

Dec 26, 2017
I know what it feels like.....
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for you. I know what it feels like because I had to go through that too.

Dec 25, 2017
So sad!
by: Sydney from HorseCrazyGirls

I feel for you...so sad.

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